Bad scores in JEE Mains did not kill 17-year-old Kriti Tripathi, the girl who jumped to her death from a five-storey building in Kota on April 28, 2016. “It’s not because of bad scores in JEE Mains. I was expecting worse. It’s because I’ve started hating myself to the extent that I want to kill myself,” Tripathi wrote in a desperate suicide note.
Just this week, Kota saw yet another suicide when an 18-year-old student, who was preparing for the Indian Institutes of Technology Joint Entrance Examination, took his life on Tuesday (August 15) night. After this incident, Kota District Collector Om Prakash Bunkar ordered all hostels and paying guest accommodations to install spring-loaded fans “to provide students mental support and security.”
Such fans collapse when a certain amount of weight is applied to them. But this measure, apparently to prevent suicides, has received a stinging backlash on social media, where netizens are asking for a greater focus on mental health rather than optics.
Amid the bustling streets of Kota — where towering hoardings of coaching institutes display triumphant faces of JEE and National Eligibility-cum-Entrance Test (NEET) toppers — lies a sombre reality. Along with the success stories, a stark contrast emerges — between aspirations and desperation.
More than 50 students have committed suicide since 2019 in the city, deemed to be the final doorway to reaching one’s dream of becoming an engineer or a doctor. More than 20 kids have taken their lives so far this year.
Of course, there are success stories but behind the relentless pursuit of excellence, questions linger — how many dreams lie shattered and how many lives are sacrificed at the altar of ambition?
The pressure that comes with clearing a competitive exam is not unknown. The Rajasthan government said earlier this year it was planning to introduce the Rajasthan Coaching Institutes (Control and Regulation) Bill with an aim to reduce academic pressure and mandate guidelines for the mushrooming coaching institutes. That Bill is on the back burner now, as per reports.
Most of the coaching institutes have counsellors to help students. Additionally, reports and student interviews suggest that the police administration reviews the mental health of students. But the bigger question remains — how does expectation spiral into hopelessness.
The Kota stories
“Many people think that ‘Kota jaenge to ho hi jaega selection’ (if you go to Kota nothing can stop you from clearing the exams). But once you are in Kota you realise that this is a whole new world, a rat race,” said 22-year-old, Swati Narayan, who has studied in one of the prestigious IIT-JEE exam coaching centres in Kota for two years.
As per data and media reports, more than three lakh students go to Kota to prepare for competitive exams every year. Additionally, as per a Forbes report, there are 3,500 registered hostels, 1,500 unregistered hostels, 5,000 PGs and over 27 coaching institutes.
“I remember the day I came to Kota with my dad six years ago. The auto-rickshaw driver told my dad, do not leave your kid alone in this city, it survives on deathbeds of innocent lives. I thought he was being dramatic but as months passed it hit me. We had classes starting at 7 am, weekly tests, and assignments — there was always the pressure of completing the syllabus and the anxiety of not doing well in the weekly tests. Soon you realise that you are skipping breakfast, lunch or dinner… all you do is study because everyone around you is doing well but somehow you are not good enough. And most of the time you have to go through this alone,” said Arpit Sharma, who was in Kota for his IIT-JEE preparations from 2017 to 2019.
Many other students that CNBC-TV18 talked to said there are 12 hours of classes every day. Many also opt for extra classes. Filled with ex-IITian teachers, the city breaks the life of aspirants down into 12 hours of coaching with 90-minute classes separated by 10-minute breaks — the remaining 12 hours are meant for eating, self-study and sleeping.
A student who is currently preparing for NEET in Kota said her day starts at 6.30 am and she studies till 2 am. In between, she has time for a single phone call to her parents. At times she manages to chat with her hostel mates.