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Jennifer Lopez is still standing strong after her and Ben Affleck’s breakup — but admits it almost took her “out for good.”
Two months after filing for divorce from the actor, Lopez clarified in an Interview magazine profile published Wednesday that she does “not regret” her choice “for one second.”
The singer, 55, explained to Nikki Glaser that the split was “exactly what [she] needed.”
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Lopez added, “I think to myself … ‘Thank you, god. I’m sorry it took me so long. I’m sorry that you had to do this to me so many times. I should have learned it two or three times ago. I get it.”
The Grammy nominee, who was previously married to Ojani Noa, Cris Judd, and Marc Anthony, likened this most recent experience to getting “hit … really hard over the head with a f–king sledgehammer” or having a house “dropped” on her.
Lopez joked about her past “romantic” mindset, saying she used to “love being in relationships and want to grow old with somebody” in order to “be whole and happy.”
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The performer called the “old Jennifer” who still wants those things a “dumb bitch” and a “motherf–ker” while telling her “no.”
Although she “finally” learned her lesson — “It only took me 30 years,” she joked — Lopez doesn’t believe she she has “everything figured out.”
The dancer admitted that her single status makes her feel “lonely,” “sad” and “desperate.”
However, she said, “When you sit in those feelings and go, ‘These things are not going to kill me,’ it’s like, ‘Actually, I am capable of joy and happiness all by myself.’”
The “Hustlers” star, who did not refer to Affleck, 52, by name in the interview, is “excited” to be alone.
“Everything that I’ve done over the past 25, 30 years, being in these different challenging situations, what can I f–king do when it’s just me flying on my own?” she asked. “What if I’m just free?”